When a group of people decided it was a good idea to control and micromanage people, and the rest of them went along with it.

Was told outright by folks:

“Why can’t I have a normal child? Why do you have to be the way you are?”

I’ve crashed and burned a lot too.

Screw normal. Wasted too much of my life trying to be, and I suck at it. That isn’t going to change. No way am I willing to see a shrink everyday of life and be on a cocktail of pills just so I can file paperwork and answer phones for the next 30 years.

Sure, it seems safe. Someone tells you what to do all the time, if you do what you are told, you usually can survive, sometimes even make a comfortable enough wage depending on what you are doing. You don’t have to take responsibility for your results as much, and you can plan for old age with enough stability.

But, companies change: people move on, they change hands, entire industries can disappear or appear almost over night.

I have never been normal.

I was a poor student, but not due to lack of intellect or ability to learn. I hate taking orders from another person without a rational reason for why, or doing something because “you’re supposed to”.

In other words, a misfit in almost every way.

I am happy that I am not alone in this.

So yes, in a traditional sense, I am an absolute 29 year old “failure”. I dropped out of college, I’ve failed at jobs, failed to create value with small businesses, failed in relationships, failed to go after my interest in music in a meaningful way, but I learned far more than many people will, and I do not regret any of it.

I just regret listening too much to others.

The reason there are more average people who are not successful is because most people do not even try out of their own fears.

While many people say the solution to my problem is to “hurry up and grow up”, start going back to school ,and working towards some career I don’t really care about, but that is “safe”; this is not the right path.

Losing everything does not bother me.

After all, there are many other successful people who have faced great adversity, and failed, but kicked ass anyway.